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Title: Limitations

Author: Aeon Cole

Rating: FRT

Fandom: CSI Miami

Word Count: 173

Spoilers: Raising Caine

Prompt: #19 Caught in the form of limitation

Table: Philosophy20 // table

Disclaimer: I don’t own them and I am not making any money from this.

Summary: All he could do was watch.

Author’s Note: This is not part of my H/Speed universe.  This show canon.  For the philosophy_20 challenge on LiveJournal.

 

 

There really is nothing I can do to stop him, even though I think he’s making a mistake.  He’s searched his whole life for his mother and now she’s here.  But I know she’s not who she claims to be.  She is his mother, yes, but she is also a con artist, a thief and probably a murderer.  I just can’t prove that last bit, not yet anyway.

 

He says he just wants a chance to love her.  I can’t blame him for that either.  I loved her myself once.  I just wish he’d stay with me.  He just started calling me dad.  I can’t tell you how good it feels to hear him call me that.  I asked him to keep in touch and he said he would.  I hope he does but again I can’t force him.

 

She says she’ll take care of him.  She promises me that.  But as they drive off, all I can do is stand there and watch feeling as if she’s stolen him away from me.

 

Fin


Title: Guilt

Author: Aeon Cole

Rating: FRT

Fandom: CSI Miami

Word Count: 330

Spoilers: Losing Face, Lost Son, Rampage, Rio

Prompt: #6 Theory

Table: Philosophy20 // table

Disclaimer: I don’t own them and I am not making any money from this.

Summary: Horatio has a theory..

Author’s Note: This is not part of my H/Speed universe.  This show canon.  For the philosophy_20 challenge on LiveJournal.

 

 

I have a theory.  Life sucks.  Yeah, I know, not much of a theory really.  Some people can go through their entire lives and never have a bad day.  Some people will never have to take any great responsibility for anything.  Some people never feel guilty about anything.  Not me.  Not Horatio Caine. 

 

Sometimes I think I carry enough guilt with me to weigh down the entire planet.  But I’ve seen way too many people die, too may criminals get away with horrific crimes, lost too many friends and family members.  I’ve had to tell too many mothers that their son or daughter isn’t coming home again.  I’ve had too much done to me over the years to not feel like life sucks.  Maybe I’m meant make up for all of the people who never have a bad day.

 

I think back over the list sometimes and wonder just what it is that I’ve done to piss off God.  My mother, all those years ago.  My brother Raymond, twice.  Al Humphreys, my friend and mentor.  Speed, that one hurt especially bad.  I don’t think I’ve ever completely recovered from that one.  My wife, Marisol, just when I thought things had finally gotten to a point where I could settle down and think about leading a normal life, maybe even having children.

 

Yes I too have taken lives.  I caused the death of my father after he killed my mother.  But I’ve only ever killed out of anger one time, Antonio Riaz.  That was revenge for killing my wife, all of the others could be justified as being in the line of duty.  But maybe those things don’t matter all that much.  Maybe it’s a balancing act.  Each life I take is somehow balanced out in the universe.  For every three lives I take one is taken from me. 

 

I don’t know.  I don’t know what God’s equation is.  Maybe it’s just the lot that some of us are dealt. 

 

Fin

Tags: csimiami, horatio caine, philosophy_20
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